Trying to work through struggles and hurts this new year has been pretty productive so far, but then we reach beauty….It is the most touchy subject with me, and I don’t know how to look past the mirror.
I often end up in tears as I look at myself, and I want to just fix all of the flaws that I have. I know that God creates beauty, and that I am created by him for him, but I still struggle with it.
Today was a hard day to get up and go into the world. I think that I am the most ugly person on the face of the planet, and I never want to go into public.
I stayed in bed crying at things that are standards that I cannot even reach.
I am waiting for someone to tell me the truth….
I don’t really know how I want it to come, or where I want it to come from, but I am sick of putting on masks and building up walls.
I want to see a light in this crazy cycle that I live.
There is so much more that I want to write, but I too often shut down on this topic.