Here is where I am: A sophomore. No declared major. A heart for ministry. No passion. A broken spirit. Worried about the future. And A God that is supposed to be showing me where it is I am supposed to go.
It seems like everywhere I turn I hear stories about friends doing amazing things. Heading to Africa to follow God’s call, another to China to teach English, others are off to follow their passion for missions and head to different states like Tennessee and South Carolina. Other friends being involved with ICA or Compassion, and what do I do? Nothing.
I have a heart that is devoted to ministry and serving, but I don’t have a specific passion. How can I choose a major if I don’t have something that I am passionate about? How can it be that I have submitted to God’s will for my life, yet I am left out in the cold, no major that is driven from a passion. Good works are not being produced, and I am waiting on God…But how long should I wait? School is coming up again, and I need to buckle down.
Am I made for ministry? Have I missed the mark for serving the world? Why is it that everyone seems to have a plan and a God devoted life, and I have nothing? I haven’t done anything to advance the kingdom this school year, I have been so me focused, and I have missed so many opportunities to serve and help because I was self, and worked on myself all 7 months of my freshman year.
So when I grow up, I want to be a….I’ve got nothing. I don’t know what I am supposed to do in my life, and I am left without a clue to what I may be doing….