Finding Favour: Shake the world

This is for my sisters that find yourselves confused
From the magazines and movie screens telling you how to be you
Oh, don’t you think it’s time to just be free?

Yeah, and this is for my brothers trying hard to be a man
But that past you can’t forget sure makes it hard for you to stand
Oh, don’t you think it’s time to just be free?

Ah, we’re free to just believe God’s grace will always be enough
Free to just be children, wrapped up in His great love

When the sons and daughters start singing this song
Then everybody all around ’em will be singing along
It’s gonna shake the world
It’s gonna shake the world
When we all start marching to the beat of the drum
Moving to the rhythm of the Kingdom to come
It’s gonna shake the world
It’s gonna shake, shake, shake the world

Yeah with mercy as our melody and justice as our guide
We’re gonna sing to all the broken that the world has cast aside
Singing don’t you think it’s time to just be free

Our God’s the only God bringing hope to all the lost
There’s healing and forgiveness in the anthem of the cross

When the sons and daughters start singing this song
Then everybody all around ’em will be singing along
It’s gonna shake the world
It’s gonna shake the world
When we all start marching to the beat of the drum
Moving to the rhythm of the Kingdom to come
It’s gonna shake the world
It’s gonna shake, shake, shake

Darkness has to tremble at the sound of His great name
Every king, every ruler, bows down at His great fame
There’s nothing that can silence the song of the redeemed, oh

When the sons and daughters start singing this song
Then everybody all around ’em will be singing along
It’s gonna shake the world
Yeah, when we all start marching to the beat of the drum
Moving to the rhythm of the Kingdom to come
It’s gonna shake the world
It’s gonna shake, shake, shake the world
Shake the world
Shake the world
Shake the world

summer so far.

I guess it is about time to actually update people on what I have been doing this summer…I wish that I had a really cute tag line to sum up what I have been doing so far, but it really isn’t that easy. No, it’s actually quite confusing and frustrating, but at the same time encouraging and redemptive.

 

Week one of being home, I told Pastor Nicole about what has been going on the past year of my life…She listened a lot, talked when I needed her to, and has been really encouraging and pushing me to move forward…It scares me though, because she really does mean a lot to me, and I am afraid that her knowing and seeing will all prove to be too much…

 

There has been the reconnection of friends, which has been really wonderful. It’s so nice to see familiar faces, and remember why those people were a part of my life to begin with. I have had encouraging conversations with the women in my life that have played as mother figures during my time spent at home.

 

I did VBS…. It was right up my little children’s pastor passion. The kids were beyond precious and it makes my heart swell up with so. Much. Love.

 

Nannying has been pretty crazy. The kids are cute, but gosh, they wear me out….So many errands and trips to the library and other things. I have realized that I really don’t want to have kids for quite sometime.

 

Lisa Burhanna and I have spent more time together during this summer, than we ever did last year…Which has been good for this little soul of mine.

 

Tyler and I had a life talk…Weird, but hey, I will take it. I am going to miss that kid when he leaves in August.

 

Spanish…Yeah, I suck at it. I honestly don’t know if I am going to get to graduate next May, because I am so. Bad. At. It.

 

I have been going to church on Sundays. Encounter performances. Thirst, and tonight I even went to Bible study…. I feel myself relaxing a little bit, but at the same time, it’s still right at the front of my mind, and I am working on it, which is more than what I can say from this past year.

 

As I continue to process and think and reorganize how I think and feel about certain things, I find myself walking back to the foot of the cross…. Others have a transformation and run to the cross….I, am walking and making sure I get every lesson on the way….It’s not easy, that’s for sure, but in the end, I am praying it will be worth it.

 

There are some things to look forward to:

I am going to camp July 7th

I am doing children’s ministry at church while I’m home

Amy, Jenny and I are spending more time together

Weddings, weddings, weddings

Have you ever looked at a picture?

No, I mean really looked at it?

I caught myself staring at this picture and thinking about all the things behind those smiles…The things that have gone on collectively, and separately.

We have: anxiety, eating disorders, depression, affairs, alcoholism, abandonment, anger, and even some hate.

But we also have: high school graduates, middle school honor roll student, amazing cook, successful business women, mr.fix it’s, dancers, and college students.

All of those things, the good and the bad have made me who I am today… If it weren’t for some of those things, I may not struggle the way I do, but if I didn’t struggle, I may not be able to love the way I do.

It’s a weird thing, but pictures have caused me to stop and look at the whole picture, not just the photograph in front of megillelands